I dont want to let you go, but you keep running and pushing me away as if you never wanted me. I put so much faith in you, into us. I did so much more to keep us together than any other relationship I’ve ever had. I tried to hard to make this work between us, because I’ve ruined everything else that was good in my past. I want to keep you. Dare I say it, if I say it, will you step all over it? Turn your back? Ignore it? Does it matter to you if I say it or not, because once I say it, it can’t be undone.
I felt something the minute I met you, but I’ll admit, I was scared, afraid it was too good to be true.
Shame you will never know any of this, because you can’t see it, I’m sure you’ve gone over the fact that I have this account. I never want you to know any of this. I dont want to lose you because you think I’m too much to handle, I dont want you to stay because you feel sorry for me. I want you to stay because you feel the same way I do. I just want to lay in your arms, because when I’m there, I’m the happiest ever. We could never go out, never buy eachother expensive things, we could never go to a party ever, we could even stop having sex, if I could just lay in your arms…
Every time i said this <3, i really meant I <3 u, which really really meant…
but i didnt want to say it directly, afraid that it would scare you off… but I can say it to myself, and I can say it here…
I love you.
